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my heart is out at sea.

frankanthonyierobuzznetcom — 2010-05-14T19:18:24Z

I always get the feeling of "I know I'm gonna lose you someday". I can't stop thinking about that feeling. It keeps on getting in my mind. Well, I know he said that it's never going to happen but I really have my doubts. Really, I'm not saying that I don't trust him but I know it will happen. And I know things like that happen for a reason and we try to convince or push ourselves that it isn't true because we're afraid of losing someone who really means a lot to us. Who made us whole everyday. Who was always there by our side. Who made us happy than ever. And who made us feel loved for the first time. It really is hard to accept things like that but sometimes, we need to let go of things that really made us become a better person. Maybe, he was there at that time to change you and let you learn from your mistakes and when he's gone, you became a better person and more stronger. So, when things fall apart with your lover, just remember that there is a reason behind that and one day, you'll see each other again and will be together for a lifetime. And if not, just put in mind that there is still another person who is better than that guy. :)

SHUTDOWN.

frankanthonyierobuzznetcom — 2010-04-26T22:02:00Z

It's guilt. FOR SURE. I'm so down and losing myself. I can't face what people have said to me. I don't believe in it because i know myself more than anyone else in this world. I can't even believe that the most important person in my life would say something so awful to me. I always thought that if he said that, he would hug me and say it to me nicely. Yeah, i know i hurt him many times but those things were not mean't to be done by me. I regret. I make mistakes. I don't think before i act. I keep bad stuff in me. I spend things all alone. I hide when I smile. I cry for myself. And sometimes, I wish he would comfort me and tell me what wrong thing I have done than jugding me. I wish he would just say, "hey, let's talk it out". I wish he would just make me feel better than defend himself. I wish he would try alot more harder to make me feel alright...

but really, he's the guy that i've been

asking for..

and really, i love him just the way he is..

*BUS STOP

frankanthonyierobuzznetcom — 2010-03-23T01:41:00Z

"off to where?", " HELL."

I do random stuff most of the time. I love to sing, dance, draw stick drawings, eat, sleep late to watch movies at night, listen to random music, writing lame stories. and more. haha. Life sucks as it gets. I cannot get a good thing about it anymore except for the fact I have my boyfriend. I'm happy that he's here and there for me. That's one good thing. Actually, I'm really facing reality now like reality reality. errr!. guess, i'm done dreaming. I'm counting all my idiocy which i hate about myself. First, I lost a lot of friends. Next, I can't go have fun anywhere anymore. Last, I'm wasted, doing stuff that I don't really like. that really bothers me. I can't turn back. THIS IS REALITY. :( ...